Sunday, July 20, 2008

TERRITORY

Salam.

Unexpected things just happened to me recently. It’s funny because I used to against this before, but now, I’m becoming one of them. It’s not the decision I took. It is all a severe mistake that somehow lead me to my bizarre downfall.

I remember the time when I read “Territory”- when Dr. Edwin precisely told me the untold stories behind it. I remember it clearly. It is about a journey longing around acceptance and rejection. But why am I walking this road, actually? No one could ever answer it, but ME.

I’ve got skeletons in my closet, who doesn’t?
But clearly, my skeletons are ages. I have to clean it up sooner or later. That is just the process of fitting in, but now I’m adding few skeletons. I stuffed my ‘closet’ with my unwanted skeletons. It’s haunting me for my past sins, I must say.

When I say, I have nothing to worry—I am a big liar.
All the things in the world are mine to worry.
Serves me right, coz this is the road that I have decided to take.

Saturday, July 12, 2008

When I learned to CHERISH


Salam.
As time flies, I realized something in common within myself and cruelty. I am strongly believed that I have successfully transformed myself into a living dead. I have no heart for sympathize and each step that I took led me far from happiness.

I have no one to blame but myself.
When everyone seemed to have their own judgment, I did nothing but stay quite and reserved. As I believe that everything will fall into their own places, the truth dragged me away and soon I am already abroad and beyond recognition.

When I learned to cherish, I’m completely turn off my self destruction buttons. I’m really paying attention to what/whom I cherished for and what touches me a lot is when my heart begins to feel things.

I love someone whom I really have to back away from.
I realized that I love the person the very moment I look into the eyes.
This is all wrong, but I can’t stop my heart from falling in love.
I got to stop this, but every time I tried to deny it, it became stronger than ever.

Help me… as I can’t help myself…

p/s:inikah C I N T A???

Monday, July 7, 2008

Friday, July 4, 2008

Weeping...

Try to put yourself in a shoe of a shopaholic, and then you may understand the crisis I’m having right now. A great battle between good and evil. A war between need and desire, a serious fight between load and loss.

Maybe, for some of you, you might come across this in your head—a shopaholic is the richest human on earth, they can spend on everything that they want without even giving a second thought, they never worries about their saving balance, they never moan they never sigh about anything. They only know how to shop and shop.
But still, have you ever thought that you might absolutely 100% wrong?

There’s a thin line between rich and broke when it comes to shop.

The way the rich and the broke sped their money is ultimately different.
But shopaholic in the other hand is terrifying.

Their nerves to control the urge and tendency to shop are almost distorted.

And unfortunately, I am one of them.

I do realize that my saving accounts are getting short, but I don’t give it a damn. Never.
The only thing that struck my mind is to buy.fullstop.

I’ve tried to slow down my activity, but always… I have failed.

I can’t resists when my eyes took a single glance at a beau-ti-fool shoes. Plus perfumes and handbags. Until there is insufficient space for me (in my wardrobe) to stuff my things. I love to shop.
I know that sooner or later I have to overcome this.

Seriously.

I need to. I must!!!

Pegawai Perkhidmatan Pelajaran

Update2!!

Salam and hye to all.

I will make this keep and short, as short as I could.

Last week was the busiest week I’ve ever had in my entire life. Seriously. I have to hand on a lot of things and at the peek of it I’m really worn out.

Through out the whole week, I had to prepare for the ‘Entrepreneur’s Day’ in my school, plus I had to prepare for my SPP interview, which I had gone through it supremely. Hihi.

~to make it simple—I AM DAMN TIRED!!!

After this, you may call me ‘Pegawai Perkhidmatan Pelajaran’. Syok!!!

Hihi!!

p/s : tak sabar mahu tunggu tunggakan gaji!