Heartache

:: i'm always proud of you stevie.i always does::

I’m home, early than usual. I’m suffocated inside. I’m a bit frustrated I must say. She did it so well. She impressed me very much and I have my faith upon her ability. Then the judges’ verdict crushed my heart.There was one girl, who practically done her presentation stupidly, has been chosen to be one of the winner.

I was like-WTF?

You effing faggots!~

p/s: redha.

Penagih

semakin hari bergelumang dengan benda neh...

saya semakin ketagih...

seriOus...

saya seorang penagih...

;)

Love Remain Unspoken-But Felt

I love this movie. Yasmin Ahmad’s touch so far has never failed me. I just love the way she evokes the spirit of love in the air and let the audience dwelling with their own interpretation of emotion.

I love it. Enough said.

“If you want me to stop seeing her, I will. I will stop seeing her. But you must teach my heart to forget her. Because my heart doesn’t know how to forget her….”

-Mahesh-

tOgethernesS...

kalau orang tanya...

sama ada,

saya ini mempercayai keajaiban ataupOn tidak...

saya akan jawab...

"percaya...."

kerana saya hidup...

dan mengalami keajaiban itu...

keajaiban-adalah satu bentuk kebesaran Allah...

p/s: ingat lagu Shania Twain "you're still the one"?

United In The DarknesS!

The 60 minutes is over! ;)

And not only I’m so proud because I’ve been part of it, but I’ve found out that my whole family is so supportive!! My sisters (though they live in a distance) called home to check whether be support the campaign or not. And we did! And we are so glad for the little contribution that we managed to give.

My mum, my dad, my lil’sister, my husband, my aunt, my uncle and my cousin, we were all gathered in my house and we have a nice chat in a pitch black surrounding, we reminiscence about the good old days, and both my mum and my aunt whom have been so nice, they even served us the best “goreng pisang” in town with black coffee of course.

Although I’m a little bit disappointed with my neighbors because they purposely ignored the campaign (and this sent a cold shiver through my body-whether I’m so mad or I’m so upset. I guess it both!) I’m happy because this is the least thing I could do to the mother earth.

Now we are back to light again.

It’s only took 60 minutes my friends. 60 minutes and there was actually nothing to loose.

For those who didn’t, you are so so gonna regret it because you have just missed the only chance, we, the earth peoples, to be actually heart to heart connected.

p/s: united babe,united

ape yg penting?

KERJASAMA!

Diam...

kadang kadang.

ada benda itu.

lebih baik kita diamkan.

dari kita

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--

---

luahkan.

.faham.

Wanita Berasap (Anda Buat Saya Yang Berasap Okey!)

Okeh harus diingatkan sekali lagi pembaca budiman,ini entri yang penuh provokasi,luahan hati amarah serta bahasa kurang beradap dan menyakitkan hati. Ya? Faham sudah?okeh-teruskan membaca.

Satu benda yang harus difahami oleh wanita-MEROKOK ITU TIDAK COOL ya. No matter what your reason is, I still think that smoking is so despicable. Ini bukan cerita wanita yang smoking hot yaaa-ini kisah wanita yang merokok dan dengan selamba jiran mak die buat muke toya tak kisah dan mencemar alam sekitar-serta alam hidung manusia berhampiran. Global warming punye penyumbang!

Okeh-saya sedang santap dengan girangnyer bersama bf tercinta, bila due ekor (errrr…) wanita (errrr…) yang mungkin terlupa membawa otak mereka dengan tanpa segan silunyer merokok dikhalayak ramai.wahhh-perasan cool la tu?oke oke,saya cube bersabar la walaupun kiri kanan makcik pakcik dah mula pandang due tige macam kat si wanita due ekor neh (errr…) then, next to them ader sorang akak bawak baby plak tuh. Wanita due ekor neh betol2 duduk di meja belakang saya. Okeh memang dressing urban la konon-konon (urban kepala lutut kau la!) oh sgt kurang kain ya-mungkin fakir miskin kot?(errrrr…) makin org pandang makin menunjuk2 pulak mereka merokok, waalauweee-ni kedai makan la pandaiiii-kau nak merokok-gi lah kat jamban sana! Okeh saya sudah marah. Encik bf sgt allergic dengan asap rokok ya dan maybe baby itu pon sudah pitam2 dengan asap rokok si wanita due ekor neh (sile pehatikan perkataan ekor telah di’repeat’ beberapa kali)

Gelak kuat-kuat mcm org kena sawan, then sambil gelak kitai-kitai rambut plak-okeh konon-konon manja la tuh-owh sgt meluat okeh. Tak makan pon,just minum2 jek tapi melepak berjam-jam tak ingat nak balik.habis sebatang-sebatang lagi plak die sambung isap.keji sungguh. Siap makan, encik bf ajak segera blah dari tempat tuh-suffocated katanya. Okeh maybe suffocated hidung kot-tapi saya sgt suffocated hati dan perasaan. Saya sgt tak boleh blah dengan si due ekor tuh.melayu okeh.bukan bangsa lain pon.malu siot!

Apelah kau nak bangga dengan merokok tuh?kau nampak mcm ja***g tahu! Cool la tu?hebat la tu?keji okeh.sgt hina.lantak la korang nak terima atau tak,tapi itu sgt keji bg wanita yg merokok.jatuh maruah.aduhaiii…saya geleng kepala sambil berlalu dari tempat makan tu. Mintak2 keturunan dan kawan-kawan saya dijauhkan dari benda-benda begitu.

Saya pelik dgn wanita sekarang-kamu cuba mahu buktikan apa sebenarnya?

p/s: taknak try isap ekzos keta?

Sakit Kepala (and it's killing me!!)

So I’m dehydrated, and the migraine is like a bullet stuck in my head.
I was working real hard to finish things for my presentation. It’s an effort of making a good impression from my superiors. Phew. It was such a dread task. I was banging my rusted brain on the wall several times before I finally came out with this very kind-of-brilliant idea.

A solid, heavy presentation on Brain Friendly English Teaching.

So I did the presentation well enough to have few thoughtful nods from my superiors and other colleagues, and I think my headache was worth it. A little brag on big words such as the theory of multiple intelligences, suggestopedia and neuro-linguistic system had thoroughly blown off their mind. Or so I guessed.

I can smile now. The crucial pain in the a** is over now.

Hoho

;)

Miss Goody Two Shoes

Owhh these peoples are exist! They could be everywhere and anywhere. It’s rather quite a belittling and insulting term for a person who won't do anything that can be regarded as "wrong" or "immoral". A male (mr.goody two shoes) or female who perceives him/herself (or is believed to perceive him/herself) as morally superior – high standard and super duper modest.

But lately, I guess the miss goody two shoes has totally transformed herself and being not that goody goody at all!

;)

There’s no more;

“ehh tak bley pakai baju ketat laaaa…nampak badan laaaa…”

But now;

“lawa la baju ni kan-sesuai habes dgn bentuk badan aku yg mcm model ni.bukan aku kata,orang lain kata…”

And no more;

“ehh tak baik keluar malam laa…kan tak elok,kita kan perempuan…”

Change to;

“ala..aku kan mengajar petang-takpelah balik malam sikit…”

No no;

“walau kat dalam rumah pun-pakailah yg sopan skit!”

Yes yes;

“selesa la pakai tube dengan short jek kan dalam rumah.tak panas tauuuu…”

So can I spit on her face now?

;)

Haihhh--

Doze Off!

I’m off from school today. I had a very terrible headache stretched a whole night and I don’t think that I can teach with condition like this.
So here I am, in front of my lappy, with loads of work to do.
Eyes are gawking.

Aksi Terlampau

ok ok..tOlOng jgn gelak...

kerana saya pernah berpOsing begini

sewaktu ingin mengambil gambar..

cume....

tidak se'hOt' ini...

dan mungkin...

beberapa kilO lemak perlu ditambah dibeberapa bahagian...

owh sgt tak hOt...

dan buruk untuk dilihat...

haih...

Stupid Me (and I'm proud of admitting it...)

I’m sorry, for many many uncool things that I’ve done, for being such a troublesome.

I’m not even dare to say that I’m proud with who I am today. Mistakes and loads of wrong doings I’ve been doing these previous years are things that I wish I can erase it from my hard disc.

But I’m not regret, for what the past is past and we have to live our life as we are supposed and learn to be more mature by each ticking clock.

I guess I’ve found my way. To start being humble, more respective, more careful with my thoughts and speeches, to be more tolerance, to be more diligent and most of all, to be thankful for what I have now.

I will not neglect my religion anymore and I will try to do my responsibility as a muslim as good as I can and be a better servant of Him.

The world has definitely made me chastened.

World Of Their Own

So my husband burst outside like a small kid, hurrying me to grab my dslr and we both headed to a small rambutan tree in front of our yard, where he suddenly gasped and pointed at one part of the tree.

At first I didn’t know what he was pointing at, but later to my astonishment I saw a small beak, yellowish I guess, peeked from a hole of a really tiny nest. It’s a bird (which to my own shame, I didn’t know the name of the bird)

So without trying to scare the birds (there are two of them altogether), I snapped pictures of them. Owh did I tell you that they are so pure and angelic? Yes, they are. There, in their small nest, it’s a big comfy home for them actually. Waiting for their mom to come home and bring something to eat, I guess they have already learned how to take care of each other, get each other back. They will wait patiently until they hear a chirping sound of their mom, eat what she has got and fly away again to search for another meal for later.

I took a deep breath and sighed hopelessly. They have no idea what kind of world they are actually living in. our world, which each time passes, we try to demolish it by our mean and heartless act, where as for the birdies, they leave peacefully, contented with what they have and seek not more than what they need.

Shame on us.

see what i mean?

Hampeh Kau Mimpi!!! Chaistttt!!

hampeh laaaa...

kecik hati betOl tauuu...

;(

dat day pg Tanjung Ketapang kat Muar,

tempat tu mmg la banyak beruk+mOnkey yg cumel2...

then tadi bley termimpi plak...

sy berposing...

dan si tukang amek gambarnyer adalah mamalia itu...

sgt tak coOl laaa...

;(

dan menambahkan tensen,

gi gOogle kat internet...

ader plak gmbO nehhh...

frustasiiii....

siOt la....

Ingat Bende-Bende Best Jek [Haruslah...]

kalaulah nudity itu sesuatu yg tidak melanggar kesalahan dan tatasusila hidup bermasyarakat maka harus lah saya me'nudity'kan diri sendiri-haihhhh panas sesungguhnyer! panas terik dan saya teramatlah faham perasaan cecacing yg pernah saya jemur dulu sewaktu kecik,mengeliat-ngeliat menahan panas-hah mcm itulah sy sekarang.berdosa pd makhluk itu.mcmana mahu minta maaf?

ok.saya faham.ni baru panas di dunia.akhirat nanti mcmne?

siapa mahu jawab?

tapi ini mmg sesungguhnya panas.

mahu bogel saja.haih-gile kah?

tetibe teringat kat budak ini.

haih-sgt tak cool la teringatkan anda.

teringat dulu before masuk kelas 5 Sains 3-si penyengih ni confirm2 terpacak kat pintu bilik guru-escort sy masuk kelas dgn selamatnya.tiap2 time English-mesti die ade.ade la sekali due failed dtg jempot-tapi most of the time die akan ade.berkat kan?result English die,tengok sajaaaa...hebatttt! ;)

hahh-ingatkan anda bukan bagi saya jd sejuk pon!

haih-miss u ashraf!

Haih... [Understanding Stupidity]

salam [pagi sabtu yang permai...]

satu risiko kalau nak berblogging-adalah apabila satu isu yg kita tulis ada menyinggung mana-mana perasaan.walaupun hakikatnya kita akan berkata "haih-blog aku,suka hati laki jiran mak aku la nak tulis ape!" ya yaa..kita mungkin berkata begitu-samada dalam hati ataupun secara sekuat-kuat hati.pilih mana satu yg berkenan.heee...tapi tulah hakikatnya...

then individu terbabit mula meninggalkan komen-komen hina ala-ala lepas geram [haih-salute betol la kamu neh] tapi yang tak syoknyer,tinggal nama 'anonymous' plak sebagai mewakili komen hampeh itu.aduhhh tak cool lah begini.baru tadi dapat salutation-tarik balik laaaa.ya,tindakan yg sgt tak berilmiah ni bolehlah kita panggil sebagai baling batu sembunyi tangan-ye la..dah baling tetiba taknak mengaku pulak...owhhh pleaseee-sgt tak moden la... yelah,bukan kah kamu kata hidup ni perlu berani la,try out thing once while u still hot [errr...hot kah?].

saya panggil itu sebagai tindakan bodoh,boleh kah?c'mon la..berani la...kalau dah tulis bukan-bukan berani la mengaku,bebeh.adoiyaiii-tak best la anonymous anonymous segala nehhh... tak indi laaa [suke suke hati bubuh pe...]huhuhu...

yaa...itu sj bebelan sy di pagi hari ni.sekian terima kasih.

owhh maaf ya semua, pasnih comment2 yg masuk kena moderate dulu...wait for my approval... ;) sayang semua bloggies yg rajin bg komen-itu juga termasuk si anonymous yg rajin peeking blog saya...haahaa..benci ya?tapi mahu baca jugak...

;)

Man with handbag? It’s a morality downgrading!

I mean, man with his wife or girlfriend’s handbag. That’s so not cool and unbelievably despicable truth. You will get a chance to see this everywhere. It’s an act of love, they say. But for me, man you’re downgrading your own morality.

I don’t get it. Why would you guys do such thing? It’s okay if let say you’re holding the bag for just a second or two, due to some emergency cases your girl has to attend to, let say, picking up something, doing her ‘business’ or what so ever, but strolling hand in hand with her, laughing and poking waist while her handbag is on your shoulder is so not manly, do you get it? It’s a stuff that only your girl can carry! Hand it over to her, for god’s sake!

And you, my precious lumpy-headed girl, don’t your ever [dare to] ask your boyfriend/man to carry your disgusting handbag! Carry it yourself, you moron. Man has integrity and no matter what, don’t you ever try to change that.

Next time, I think I want to roll over and puke in front of those who do this stupid act of love. There’s no such thing in love. Love is everything but immorality.

You whack-headed girls!

[kepada incik dan mak incik yang saya telah sound di kfc pacific mall petang tadi-saya memohon ribuan ampun dan maaf-kamu berdua sangat menggelikan ‘hati’ saya dengan karenah2 ‘manja’ kamu itu…maaf ya incik dan mak incik-wekkks!]

Menyesal...

You know what has the ultimate power to break loose the chain of my superior diet?

My mom’s cook.

Haihhh laaa emak….

That sambal tumis udang really spoilt my diet.

Nasik 2x tambah occayh….

Haih….

PutOs Sudah Kasih Sayang...

Even heartache seems a little less affected to me. No tears I guess for the wisdom words of departure.

Have you ever heard the saying “Absence makes heart grow fonder”? Well, scratch that. It’s undisputedly rotted and corrupted. Because for me, “Absence makes me definitely forget the feeling that I used to have with you.”

Owhhh ini memang betOl betOl putus cinta punyer kes…

p/s: bagi cinta kat sumOne yg layak... ;)

Gian... (Addicted Sounds A Lil'bit Mild...Haihsss...)

i dunnO why...

but i like dOing this...

i dun care what Others might say...

but i just lOve it...

with camera in my hands

i'm surrOunded by fame and vanity...

as if

the wOrld is mine...

;)

i wOuld like to call my self a pHotOg...

any Objection?

If You Dare!!!!!

How many of you are dare enough to post some picture like this??

You?

You?

You?

I bet none of you has gut to do it!

;)

I Want To Be Nice!

Salam

I’m not nice!

I want to be nice! I mean, real nice. Not just sugarcoating my bad bad behaviour, but a real, solid niceness.
I’ve tried. Yeah, I’ve tried to be nice and modest and all, but (sighs) I ended up frustrated with the results. My friends said I have this air of hatred and avenge all over me. Quite a bad aura, they said. At first I thought they’ve just wanted to annoy me but later on, to my freaking astonishment, I’ve started to believe it though.

I’m not a jerk, I’m just not nice. Not nice here means I’m not that type of girl (errr… does it suits me n’more??) that will shower you with smile the very first time we met (this will always be considered as a must-have-criteria-so-people-will-call-you-a-nice-girl, anyway-tettt! I don’t have this!), and I will NOT purposely asking people to share seats with me (I’m very much care with personal hygiene-so shooo bacteria!) , I’m not even an animal lover except for my crippled cat and I don’t have a long list of friends except for those who has known me since like…forever?(count in Naddy, Andak, Aloi etc…)

And I’m really tired of peoples who somehow misjudge me for my appearance. Yeah, I have this arrogant, owh-so-vain kind of look, but I’m not a child molester for god’s sake! So don’t treat me like I’m a super kinky!

So I want to be nice.

Nice and modest.

p/s: owhh my radin...i pity you...

p/ps:i pity myself mOre...

Time Bomb!!!

ia akan meletOp bila-bila masa sahaja!

eff yOu-b i a t c h!!!

Unplanned Pregnancy

Quite a good movie I must say, and I just love the way Ellen Page enlightened the character of Juno Mac Guff.

I think I’m not ready to see my tummy got swollen like I accidentally eaten a mini-bus.

[sigh]

I'm Pooling Tears

miss..wanna thanx to u

coZ teach me until the end..

miss mmg superb arh!!

wish me luck in the future keyh..

hope we can meet again one day..

sayang miss ketat2..ngeE~~

*jgn lupe bayo bilL astro yg da dipotong 2..hahahaha!!!

[ashrav]

okehhh-jangan nangisss...tarik nafas dalam-dalam...

lepasssss....

jangan nangis....

jangan nangissss....

Oh my gOd....

sOb...sOb....sOb...uwaaaaaaa....i'm sO effing tOuched!!!!

FRIDAY THE 13th!!!

sOme say..

"Hari Celaka Sedunia"

behOld....

for bad things will tail you wherever yOu gO....

[gulp]

really?

i dOn't knOw....

because as far as i knOw...

Friday is a sacred day...

"Penghulu Segala hari"

-heaven is created by Allah On Friday... ;) Rasulullah was bOrn On Friday...

Friday means hOliday...

i lOve Friday...

regardless the fact that tOday is Friday the 13th....

[jeng jeng jenggggggg....]

Haihhhh-sukeeeeeeenyerrrr!

mana tak suke.....

eSok last day...

-

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befOre

-

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schOol hOlidaysssssssss!!!!

eiyahhhoOoOOOooOOOOO!

p/S:bawak beristighfar chekgu....

Gambar Dalam Folder Ke-6 (Tag From Mel)

Tag untOk hari ini (oleh mel si chOmelll)

rules & regulatiOns:
1. Pergi ke tempat/partition yang anda simpan gambar.
2. Terus ke folder keenam.
3. Kemudian,pilih gambar yang keenam dalam folder tersebut.
4. Taruklah gambar tuh dalam blog anda dan ceritakannya.
5. Cabar enam orang untuk menjawab tag anda.
6. letakkan link mereka dalam blog anda sebagai tanda yang anda mencabar mereka...

(haihhh-dah mcm 6 jahanam dah-kikikiki)



sO-inilah gmbrnyerrrr... ;)



tadaaaaaaa.....

ermm..neh gmbr bantal busyukkk saya-mmg kOnpem busyuk pOn-nO dOubt.

hOhOhO-beli di carrefOur-stOned jek muke si bantal nehh-dats y saya beli-kikiki..

hOhO-marilah kita men'tag' lagi 6 Owang pengunjung bertuahhhh...

1.sue

2.nad

3.nadnad

4.nanab

5.genie

6.cik serOja

Nasihat Dari Sang SipOt

"wahai manusia-

janganlah kamu berkata bOhOng-memfitnah-bermusuh-musuhan sesama manusia, menggunakan kebijaksanaan mu untuk membangga diri dgn kaum yg bOdOh, menggunakan kecantikan untuk bermegah-megah...

manusia yang terpilih,

janganlah kamu mengadu-dOmba,janganlah kamu gunakan kuasa untuk menindas yang lemah... janganlah kamu mengambil apa yg bukan hak kamu...

ingatlah selalu kamu kepada Allah...

kerana dariNya kamu datang dan kepadaNya lah jua kamu akan pulang...."

sian kat sipOt tuh...

walaupOn kita panggil die dgn nama yg tak elOk,

"sipOt b**i"

tapi sipOt tuh tak pernah dendam Or aniaya ape2 kat kite...

cayangggg sipOt....

;)

p/s: fikir2kan dan selamat beramallllll....

I ToOk MC For sOme Funny Thing!

Funny thing happened today. To be exact, this morning, as I’m dressing to work.
I’m a little earlier today, with high motivation and self esteem, I daintily walked from here to end, singing by heart, I took everything so smoothly just before it happened.

As I putting on some make up, I accidentally brushed me right eye with facial toner and this caused a burning sensation to my eyes! Both eyes! I don’t know why my left eye was affected too, perhaps because ‘cubit peha kanan, peha kiri terasa juga’? Well-that’s not it!

House was a little bit chaotic, with me running back and forth trying to look for an Eye-Mo, with mum high-pitch babbling polluting my hearing and husband seemed so worried he almost lay flat on tiles!

OMG! ~ my eyes burnt! [sort of…]

I can’t stand t any longer. It still early in the morning and I can’t do anything but cried. Yes, I did cry. I’m in an agonizing pain, okay. So, it can be accepted!

So, I reached my handphone, texted to Radin and Encik Zaini, saying that I would probably stay M.I.A from school today. I can’t stand it any longer. I thought I will turn out to be blind!

At 8.00 am, husband sent me to clinic-took my MC and left home.

It’s funny, right? Apart from being so careless and effing stupid? ;p

I think it’s funny.

I had a good laugh on it.

Funny things happen sometimes.

I'm Fat!!

Urghhhhh!! I just hate this excessive fat all over my body! It’s killing me!! And what’s more throat-slashing was when Dell came home and looking trimmer than ever!!! I hate this! Life’s suck!

Well, I’ve put on some weight since I got married to a wonderful, caring and romantic husband [flaunted!] to be exact, its 3 kilos. This is not something that I should be proud of. Yeikh!

Forget yoga, forget dancing around like a stupid jerk [they call it aerobic!], forget those crazy walks that I used to have back then when I was a single, forget carbs cutting formulae, forget everything and tadaaa… I ended up having a flabby arms, thigh and ass!

It’s disgusting!!!!

I should be on DIET for God’s sake!

And say ‘hello’ again to my voluptuous jeans and tops, instead of lurking around and mingle wearing a stupid oversize top and dress just to put my XXL ass in disguise!

My aim is-45 by June.

God-Bless me!!

I Guess I'm Wrong

I don’t think my job now suits me. I don’t think that I’m able to inspire. I don’t think I have the guts to stand tough and leave out the rest. I don’t think I have a strong will and ongoing determination to be part of the nation building. I don’t think I love the feeling and sensation I used to have each time I walk into the classroom. I don’t think I have the desire to be surrounded by peoples anymore. I don’t think I will succeed through the rows of thorn.

I don’t think I love this anymore.

I don’t think being a teacher is relevant for me now.

I’m not cut out for this.

I guess, for all this while-I’m absolutely wrong. The more steps I made, the clearer my path is taken wrongly.

All I want is, To be respected. To be known. To be noticed. To be needed.
And not all this humiliation.

I guess I’m wrong.

Perempuan

sesungguhnya

saya bersyukur dilahirkan sebagai perempuan

;)

owhh-dan anna,

kamu sangat tinggi dan cantek ;)

[dan ibu kamu seriOus habess muda!jeles i! heeee]

Kamu

alangkah bahagianya,

andai kita bOleh bertemu...

dengan Orang yang bisa,menghilangkan

segala resah dan gelisah...

dengan hanya melihat wajahnya...

dan aku...

telah bertemu dengan seseOrang itu...

Ber-Pinky-an ;)

ya ya...

si vain datang kembali...

ini adalah yg sempat diambil sebelOm pg wedding cOusin

di Seri Medan,Batu Pahat

enjOyyyyy!

;)

Suatu Petang Yang Mendamaikan

lagi sesi menembak ;)

::si specky yg buat sy jatOh cinta sentiasa::

::nasehat yg selalu buat sy rasa tenang..::

::kamu jgn pergi,sayang...::

-penambahbaikan...-