Thursday, October 30, 2008

striking pink+blue

salam. ;)
tahpe la angen pg neh,went to work with quite a statement colour.hihi-- great striking pink+bluish chiffon. macam sewel jerrrr~tp mcm quite occay jugak... ;)
mood pon rase mcm laen jek.happyyyy jer manjang.nape eh?
otw nak pg kerje tuh sempat gak berposing2 sakan dalam keta. orang yang lalu lalang semua pandang cam pelek jer.nape?tak pernah tengok owang lawa ker? wahhhh!!! hahaha...
pasnih nak try baju yg kaler2 cenggini.bagi saket mata sket orang memandang. yeaahhh... kalau ilang pon senang owang nak carikkkk... ;)

Get Mean... Get Even...!!

If you say that sometimes life is unfair to you, you are totally wrong—because life is ALWAYS unfair to you. It deceives you in one way or another. Mimicking your downfalls and haunting you with agonizing pain and endless humiliation. Life will always tarnish your beauty of remain memories with saddening words of liars; life will juggle your fate like never end. Life will come to you with its malicious face and rip off your spirit before it burn your belief and strong will.

I perceive life through my most hurtful memories.
And each time life teaches me something valuable and worthy, I grow stronger than ever.


Two of my former friends returned back my invitation card without specific reason. They said that I should give it by hand to them instead of asking my PAR to distribute it for me. They threw me quite an insolence words.

My comments: emmm… perhaps this is the new way human loosing their dignity and integrity with humiliated others for self pride purposes. No offence:: but this is just to much::

Perhaps I should just back to normal. Restore back the old ME. The mean me. The old me who will never give a shit about people. Self centered and pretty annoying too. Perhaps I should double think on being nice to others and rather be called with type of bad names than being super kind but still hated by others. Perhaps I should be a super villain.


Monday, October 27, 2008

Look What You've Done~

Take my photo off the wall
If it just won't sing for you'
Cause all that's left has gone away
And there's nothing there for you to prove

Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
Oh well, it seems likes such fun
Until you lose what you had won

Give me back my point of view'
Cause I just can't think for you
I can hardly hear you say
What should I do, well you choose

Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
Oh well, it seems likes such fun
Until you lose what you had won

Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
A fool of everyone
A fool of everyone

Take my photo off the wall
If it just won't sing for you'
Cause all that's left has gone away
And there's nothing there for you to do

Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
Oh well, it seems likes such fun
Until you lose what you had won

Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
A fool of everyone
A fool of everyone

p/s: Thank You For Got Me Fooled...

Sunday, October 26, 2008



This is really a jaw-dropping moment!
The minute I saw Dell holding two massive paper bags, imprinted with big GUESS logo on its cover I can feel that my body was shivering!
My nerves were jumping up and down and my mind was actually stop working! Ngeee~

It was actually only a few steps ahead that separated me and Dell but for me, those few steps were like ages! Ages, dude!
I grabbed the bags—digging deep inside it and there they were—

The most voluptuous and sexiest bags I have ever seen!
They are so sleek, elegant and eyes catching!!!!

Automatically, my sadness flown away—I can barely remember the reason I mourned all day. The only thing in my mind was just— those pretty bags!
Examining the bags (like I always do) along with the adrenalin filled all over my body, my lips can’t stop smiling. It was a solemn miracle that was just happened. A sense of relief and thankfulness that only me and my kind can understand. That only can be well understood by a pure shopaholic like me.

I love it!
I really heart it Dell!

Thanks to you, thanks for your sacrifice. The humiliation that you went through in the process of bringing these two angles to me.
Thanks so much for this presents.
I’m so touched!

:: ini mmg gilos punye chantekzzz!::

::sudah lama cari beg merah... ;) ::

p/s: sayang DELL lebey... ;)



Woke up in the morning with miscellaneous feelings of guilt, remorse and regret.
It creates an ambiguous fusion of confusedness.

I wish if only I could turn back time, then I would probably change the whole thing.

Staring blankly to the ceiling, the sound of whipping fan sooths me.

My wedding day is just around the corner, but there’s uncertainty in every single move I make.
So many questions popped up in my mind and each time I tried to answer it, my mind went completely blank.

I’m going to be someone else’s wife.
It’s a scary fact.
(Is it?)

I took a deep sigh and turn my head to my left side.
I saw a picture of him and me on my engagement day.

He was smiling soooo happily and I can still remember how touched I was at that very moment.
The moment he slipped the ring on my finger, I almost cry my heart out.
It’s an almost victory—perhaps.

I love him. There’s no doubt.
But recently—I’ve been hurt.

I wish I have the answer to my heart.
Maybe—what I’m going through right now is just a phase in my life. A challenging one, perhaps.

Dell Bawa Kebahagiaan

ini punya saya!!!

juga suke iniiiii....
Probably, shopping is the only thing can sooth my broken heart. And perhaps, the only treatment that suits me is just spending hours of fancying over great stuffs, maybe a session of try things on and maybe—just maybe, if I dare enough to spent some money to but those stuffs, then my sadness can be cured, my heartache can be vanished. (sighs…)

And Dell is perhaps the best therapist in this entire world.

She brings me good news along with great stuffs.

Two Guess handbags as a reward.

I must be insane if I rejected it.

:: Dellll…cepat pulangggg!!!! ;) ::

Tuesday, October 21, 2008



A busy week but I found it quite overwhelming. With so limited time but so many things to do—this is a crazy adhoc.
Exam week just around the corner. It brings two news, bad and good one—side by side.
Good news—I don’t have to prepare my lesson plan anymore (yeayyyyyy~)
Bad news—I have to stay put because I’m working during the SPM examination. (Bosan seyyyyy---)

Well—that is not the exact thing I’m going to nag on tonight. There is one more thing.
I received an SMS this morning and sent me quite an extreme shocked, petrified me with countless numbness and unexplained heartache.
With trembling hands, I hold my handphone for a moment before I exhaled a deep frustrating breathe.
In a split of second my mind went blank.

So I did understand the feeling of being abandoned—being rejected and being neglected.

Owhhhh come on! So this is the new way of breaking up? Or, it is actually done before this and only me become so ignorant I left the world behind?


I smiled a little. Reclined. Then I gather my things, grabbed my handbag and went straight to my class. On my way upstairs, there is only one thing being playback over and over again in my mind. The vow and promises. It makes my stomach growling in pain and sickness. I wanted to puke. It was so disgusting I almost throw out in and agonizing nausea.

So there goes my ultimate trust.
I took a deep breath and smiled to the sun before I appeared in front of the door of 5 Science 3. They welcomed me with their most beautiful smile, and their pure sincerity sailed away my pain, my disappointment and my broken heart.

p/s: when one door is closed—a lot of others opened up. Thanks anyway =)

Monday, October 20, 2008

God Has Spoken~

Literally, I’m now battling with my feeling against the darkest wish of human desire.
I keep on denying if and (thank God I’m realizing it) now I’m on the edge of getting rid of it.


It’s the nastiest yet wickedest feeling of all.
I should have say NO—a big NO long time before I’ve found out that I’m too far from my border line.

And I guess—God Has Spoken to me very loud and CLEAR.

It’s called FORBIDDEN because it is WRONG and an absolute SINNED.
I know.
And for this very moment,
With tears rolling downs my plump cheeks—I will let go this feeling. FOREVER.

p/s: Subhanallah…

Sunday, October 19, 2008



berhenti bermain dgn jiwa...

~alasan bodoh tetapi sgt bergaya...

p/s:meminta pd yg sudi...

berkasih pada yg sayang...


Monday, October 13, 2008

Tagged By Notty Nad

5 things

What were the 5 things on your to do list today?
1.mahu siapkan students registration
2.mahu cashkan cheque
3.mahu update blog/friendster
4.mahu edit gambar
5.mahu makan kueh raya yg saki baki... hihi
What are 5 snacks that you enjoy? bueno
2.chocolate~any... ;)
3.twisties yg cheese yahh...
5.errrr....potato chips...
What are 5 jobs you've had?
2.toll-teller surveyor
4.quality controller (jap jek...tak smpi 3jam..hihi)
5.the most dedicated teacher... ;)
Huhu...harap cik nad notty berpuas hati yahhhh...kikiki

Thursday, October 9, 2008

itu cinta... ;)

semalaman sy menghabiskan ms menonton dvd pemberian encik ajak~ayat2 chenta...
wahhh~it's quite a story sungguh la...
jalan cerita yg simple tp sungguh terkesan di hati--dgn dialog yg sgt natural tetapi penuh bermakna...
sy jadi sguh tersentuh...

teringat kata2 Maria...
"Aku memohon maaf padamu Fahri,Aisha bukan kerana kesalahan yg aku lakukan... tetapi kerana kini baru aku tahu--menyintai dan memiliki adalah dua perkara yg sgt berbeda..."

terima kasih encik ajak atas dvd ini...

terima kasih....

The Number Is 25th! ;)

I always goes nut on my birthday. Counted mood swing too—which I don’t know why. But it does happen every year without exception.
But this year, I must say that I’m experiencing the most unforgettable one.
Celebrating the big day with my students, friends, love one and my family, I found it quite overwhelming and a little bit touching too.

Thanks to all~ everyone, specifically.
For the wishes, for the hopes.

I’m going to say this in short—I’m so thankful for this gift.
For everything that happens, for every single journey in my life. I am a tough 25 years old girl with a strong heart and faith. InsyaALLAH.

To Dell~ Thanks for the treat and everything (I love you so0o0o0oo much--) and please don’t be sad—it’s not that I’m going to leave you FOREVER ;)

To my fiancé – for the sweet teddy in the box (I call it FAHRY)
For your endless love and everything. I owe you my life.

To my sweet- thanks for the songs… ;)

Thank yoooooooooooooooooooooooouuuuuuu!!!!

Tuesday, October 7, 2008

Suatu Masa

tahu tak kamu,sy sgt rindukan kamu...sudah hampir 6 tahun dan kamu masih sy rindu...

tahu tak kamu,
yg sy sentiasa teringatkan kisah kita yg sudah lama itu?
tetapi hingga kini masih membuatkan sy tertawa dan menangis kerana kisah itu...

sy sentiasa kagumi kamu...
semangat dan keazaman kamu...
sentiasa buat sy tahu--
bahawa dalam dunia ini,masih ada insan baik spt kamu...
sy rindu kamu--
teman baik sy selamanya... ;)

Jalan Kelam Dan Semakin Suram

hanya sebuah pesanan ringkas buat cinta di RIMBA

suatu masa...kau pasti mengerti...
kenapa aku cinta kamu...
dan kenapa aku tidak bisa menyintaimu..."


Wajah Riang Di Hari Lebaran

wahhhhh!--manja banget kamu yah... ;)

meredah segala yg ada untuk berhari raya...huhu

tunjuk pe tuh?anak bulan kah...hihihi

Thursday, October 2, 2008


Alamak~should I say, it was the busiest year ever—but still, it’s the happiest of all.
I have to run errands, doing all sort of things—catching up breath and up to certain stage of exhaustion, I was so flat I can’t even move my eyelids!

But~ I have to say that this is the memorable year of celebrating Eid Mubarak. This is my first year of working/ and for this Eid Mubarak, I gave my mom the most priceless gift ever. She was always whining about our nasty old kitchen, how she always tripped over things, stepped onto unwanted things messed over my kitchen floor. And this year, I can see her smile spread widely across her pouty lips. :: I gave my mom a new kitchen::~the heart of a house,aite~ ;)


errr....cubaan membuat biskut...

mcm menampakkan hasil... ;)

hahaha...white choc cookies...mcm setappp jerrr!!!

p/s: still, got many things to do... ;(