Literally, I’m now battling with my feeling against the darkest wish of human desire.
I keep on denying if and (thank God I’m realizing it) now I’m on the edge of getting rid of it.
It’s the nastiest yet wickedest feeling of all.
I should have say NO—a big NO long time before I’ve found out that I’m too far from my border line.
And I guess—God Has Spoken to me very loud and CLEAR.
It’s called FORBIDDEN because it is WRONG and an absolute SINNED.
And for this very moment,
With tears rolling downs my plump cheeks—I will let go this feeling. FOREVER.