Sunday, September 27, 2009

After Great Pain, A Formal Feeling Comes...

Maybe Emily Dickinson was right, what is more to expect when your heart crushed then left unattended, scrutinized by humiliation and judgment? they will have their verdict, perhaps they already have one. Then again, it will up to us to decide and bear with the consequences for the rest of our live. I've done my thinking. I have my decision. I'm living my life now.

Why is no one out there really support me?

it's a ten years of humiliation. a DECADE. 10 years of endless heart-crashing life. 10 years of back-stabbed kind of friendship, 10 years with million liters of tears. 10 years of punishment. 10 years of disgraced. and now they asked me if i ever try to consider of going back?

This is the Hour of Lead
Remembered, if outlived,
As Freezing persons recollect the Snow
First-Chill-then Stupor-then the letting go.

i'm feeling nothing. i'm dead inside to be exact.

then don't ask me for more, for i have nothing last to offer.

p/s: saat kau ucapkan "aku terima nikahnya..." separuh nafasku terhenti bersamanya...

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